Sanatorium

The Sun's last ray of light, crushed on the ceiling
moves like a mortified shadow without meaning
shifting towards the floor, to fall and fade away
in deaf morbid gloom night takes place of day
All is silent, all is into sleep
hoping for salvation under sedatives
its so cold, i see my bleeding breath
A blue purple fume, a dead soul i shed
slowly i exhaled
all those infected layers
which covered my tormented soul,
and woke up from my own perfect inside world
now i expand....
these restrains on my hands
don't make prison anymore
i can feel my core
swell up inside swallowing all
finally i am free
to concur this infinite dull maze,
sanatorium maze of gray mold-covered hallways
time to infiltrate...
to watch her dream her hopeless dreams
Like Icarus without his wings
I feel my heart pounding everywhere
Beating in flames dissolving despair
As i gaze out all the windows at the same time
and see the gray purple final sky,
the way it unwinds...
the way it bleeds to death on me
crying its last tears, chocking to breathe
And I've seen it all
there's nothing better behind these gray walls
nothing to hope for
And I'm crushing inwards to what i used to be
I'm surrendering myself back to what was inside me
waiting for my soul to fade and die down
content to feel how feelings go numb