Void

Waking up
just to see the final sky crushing down on me
to think i knew it from the start
to think bleeding hurts more from the heart
and i saw myself failing
but in the end it never really mattered
picking up the pieces when dreams get shattered
putting them within although i know they hurt
cutting like glass a soul God disturbed

and i remember fading away
painting myself in a million shades of gray
throwing myself in this purple deep sky
never to feel again, never to feel alive
in regards to myself i was never enough
going forward but in the wrong line
well i guess,
the road is short when your mind is a blur
i never knew giving in was supposed to hurt
and I've found myself in this hole crouched down
being covered in infinite gray clouds
I've seen myself caught behind the shade
strapped in this dead black rose tourniquet

and if this is all there is,...
then dreams never came true,
illusions died,
like a flower that never bloomed,
and so did i...in this hole down below..
forever to sink, forever alone...
and the sun will never again cast its light on me,
and warmth i will never again get to feel,
in mourn, i silence, tied in this grave
this hollow wasteland, this void that i am